Feel

I couldn’t count

How many times I say sorry

Day in and day out,

Never used to be this way

But time effects all

Natural processes of being,

You’ve had your share

Of a fucked up life

Nothing ventured -

Nothing gained,

But you’re lacking some

Sense of compassion;

I decide to will

empathic clarity,

Dreaming of you makes me miss

The train I’m gonna catch,

Im trying my hardest not to latch

on to the expectation

That you will ever react

In a smitten way,

No, not today

or ever in this place

You’ll never see through my face

At this point it seems,

And I’m getting sick of these scenes

I’m not waiting like your bitch anymore

‘cause I never will be,

Never been before.

It’s all so dreary

Because lying next to you;

I feel infinite, complete.

In your absence;

I spin myself dizzy

On the bullshit you feed.

To your rejection;

I feel desolation and despair

and just want to pull through the air.

But when all is done,

Reprieve is gone

The words in my mind will ramble on

About how you make this feel so wrong

I wish you could

let yourself feel

for once.